i dont get it why people just make rash decisions. but theres a lot of stuff i don’t get, i guess. like i don’t get why main girl is in a job that’s really hard and makes her have emotional brakedowns. and i dont also get why she moved everything around in her room this weekend. and i mainly right now don’t get why nobody believes that we are different people.
main girl has decided she doesnt want to talk to people this week but what that really means is that she is givng Nutella a break and trying to figure out her life. i’m ok with that cuz i think main girl really NEEDS to figure out her life but i don’t get why that has anything to do with me. i don’t need to figure out my life, well not like that. i don’t have her issues, i’m just me, and i’m totally fine.
so explain to me how it’s fair that i dont get to talk to Nutella either? because it doesn’t make ANY sense. if there’s the rule that i can’t date other people because i’m in the same body and whatever i’m “the same person” as main girl then i guess ok. but i’m NOT though, and i’m not talking about dating anyone else because i don’t WANT to because I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND. but like, i’m so not the same person as main girl.
most of the time i’m used to being treated like her and i’m ok with it because it’s harmless and i’m like a brother that protects her. but like come ON. sometimes it’s really not fair. like now! why does anyone else have a say about when i talk to my girlfriend? why do i gotta feel like i’m ignoring her when i want to talk to her? what the hell, right?
i hate feeling bad, it sucks, and i didn’t even do anything.
and since she isn’t updating this its my job to keep track of shit so sunday she had like an anxiety attack in a fucking store, no fun, then couldn’t sleep all night and is taking pills and *stuff* to calm herself down cuz yea it’s going sooooo fucking well. but she also doesn’t want to feel anything, and i DO understand that cuz i used to drink lots.